Inquiry - re-worked in 10 seconds

How about..

'As a leader/teacher, how does your mood affect the development of your colleagues/students?'

Better?

Task 2d: Inquiry

Since keeping a journal and using reflection as a tool to evaluate my actions one question I keep asking myself is - 'How did I affect that situation?'.

I am a MASSIVE mood carrier. In the sense that I carry my mood around with me EVERYWHERE I go. And the mood I am in is written all over my face. People tell me this all the time. People at work and sometimes even the kids I teach ask me.. 'Miss, whats up?'. And when I look back at that I think to myself.. 'thats really bad!?'. I should walk into my class and look warm and approachable and happy. Not like I've got a thorn in my backside. What sort of child wants a moody teacher? NONE. I remember being a kid in class and I hated it when my teacher was in a mood. It made being in class a scary experience. And thats not a good learning environment.

So I have made a conscious effort to 'leave my problems at the door' when arriving and work and at class and it seems to be making a difference. People are more friendly towards me where as previously they may have given me a wide birth on particular days. And my classes are more fun and the children are happy to see me each week.

So at the moment the main theme I am interested in investigating is something along the lines of:

'As a leader/teacher, how does your mood affect the ability of your colleagues/students to develop?'

Although I'm not sure that sounds too powerful so maybe I will look at re-wording it.

Any thoughts/suggestions would be GREATLY appreciated.

Many thanks :)

Task 2c: Reflective Theory

Reflection

noun

1. [MASS NOUN] Serious thought or consideration

   1.1 [COUNT NOUN] An idea about something, especially one that is written down or  expressed

Reflection is an every day process. Without even realising, we as humans reflect on a number of everyday situations in a number of different ways. This reflection may happen in-action (whilst a situation is occurring) or on-action (after the event has happened). 

We don't follow a formula for this it just happens as feelings, thoughts and emotions about something gradually ‘surface’. We might choose to do something differently, or not, as a result of reflecting, but reflection is essentially a kind of loose processing of thoughts and feelings about an incident, a meeting, a day – any event or experience at all.

Reflection is a type of thinking associated with deep thought, aimed at achieving better understanding. It contains a mixture of elements:

1. Making sense of experience

We don’t always learn from experiences. Reflection is where we analyse experience, actively attempting to ‘make sense’ or find the meaning in it.

2. ‘Standing back’

It can be hard to reflect when we are caught up in an activity. ‘Standing back’ gives a better view or perspective on an experience, issue or action.

3. Repetition

Reflection involves ‘going over’ something, often several times, in order to get a broad view and check nothing is missed.

4. Deeper honesty

Reflection is associated with ‘striving after truth’. Through reflection, we can acknowledge things that we find difficult to admit in the normal course of events.

5. ‘Weighing up’

Reflection involves being even-handed, or balanced in judgement. This means taking everything into account, not just the most obvious.

6. Clarity

Reflection can bring greater clarity, like seeing events reflected in a mirror. This can help at any stage of planning, carrying out and reviewing activities.

7. Understanding

Reflection is about learning and understanding on a deeper level. This includes gaining valuable insights that cannot be just ‘taught’.

8. Making judgements

Reflection involves an element of drawing conclusions in order to move on, change or develop an approach, strategy or activity.

Reflection can be a great way of creating better self-understanding and becoming aware of your strengths/weaknesses both in your personal and professional life.

For me, reflection is about learning from my experiences and also from any mistakes I have made. In my full time job I am a manager of an immediate team of 30 and a further wider team of 100. It is important for me that I use reflection effectively to ensure I am being the most efficient manager and leader I can possibly be. As a manager not only do I have to ensure I am effectively coaching a team but I also have to coach myself to continually grow as an inspiring and influential manager and reflection is the most productive way of me doing this. I often have to draw on my own experiences to help lead one of my team and give them the best possible advice on dealing with a situation or task and so it is important that I have reflected on my experience of such task so that I can offer the best and most beneficial direction.

I read an incredible piece of writing titled:

'Self-reflection: The key to effective leadership'

This can be found at: http://works.bepress.com/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1132&context=peter_miller

Is is WELL worth a read. I found it incredibly inspiring and it really stood out to me as I felt I could really relate the theories used to my job role.

To summarise, I think reflection is a great tool for self-discovery and growth in both personal and professional life. Reflecting effectively on my daily experiences has enabled me to develop my personal and professional understanding which has in turn seen me receive 3 promotions and 3 pay rises in 9 short months. Now if THAT isn't a good enough incentive for using reflection as part of your daily routine then I don't know what is?! 

GET REFLECTING.

Sources:

http://www.qmu.ac.uk/els/docs/Reflection.PDF

http://www.oxforddictionaries.com/

Task 2b: Reflective Writing

Okay so having written about 1 day in 5 different styles I have established 1 thing: I do almost EVERYTHING on impulse.

I used Description, Initial Reflection, Evaluation, What If? & Another View.

Of all 5 methods I chose to try out I found using Initial Reflection and then later using Evaluation worked really well. The two methods went hand in hand to show what emotions I was feeling at the time of the event that happened at work and then later after the event once I had had time to reflect on and evaluate the situation. When looking at these two pieces side by side I was able to see how extremely different my views on the event were at the time of the event and after the event. During the event I was absolutely seething and threw my toys out of the pram and then looking back at the way I reacted to the event I thought 'What an idiot. If I had only had time to evaluate the situation and take a couple of deep breaths then I may not have made myself look such a tit!'. This was when I came to the realisation that I am an impulsive person.

I then started to look back at other things that have happened recently...

 I bought a new car last week for example. Something I had wanted to do for a while but it wasn't high on my list of priorities and I had put it to the back of my mind. However on one particular day myself and some colleagues had begun talking about it and from that moment on I became obsessed with the fact that I 'needed' to buy a new car. So I did?! Just like that.

In August last year I decided (again on impulse) to book flights to Texas to visit somebody I had met on a Cruise just 2 weeks before. I spent £600 and then when it came to the date of travel I didn't actually go as myself and the person I was due to visit had virtually stopped talking. But obviously this was bound to happen. One good reason for it was the time difference of course! And again, if I had just waited to evaluate the situation and tried to look into the future as to what might happen then I could've avoided such a waste of money!

But yes, to conclude, I have found that by reflecting on one single day in a couple of different ways it has led me to thinking about many different situations I maybe hadn't reflected on before. This in turn has shown me that with a little more time and a few deep breaths I could improve my impulsive actions in many different parts of my life and in turn become a more calm and collected person with the ability to deal with situations in a more productive way!

Lesson well learned.

Task 2a: Reflective Practice

I had never kept a journal of any kind until I started on the 3 year Performing Arts course at Italia Conti. Part of our Contextual Studies was to keep a journal of 3 chosen subjects weekly that we would look back at and 'reflect' on at the end of the term to evaluate what we had (or hadn't as the case may be) learnt & what we had struggled with or improved on. I HATED having to do this. I found it a giant inconvenience and a great huge waste of my time. Especially since one of the subjects I chose to reflect on was ballet. And I DESPISED ballet. 'But you chose it?' I hear you say. Yes I know. And I chose it because it was something I struggled with and knew that there would ALWAYS be something I could write about. However that didn't take away from the fact that I hated writing about it. But that's my problem you see.. I am an intelligent young woman - I know whats good for me and what is going to be beneficial to me but 'naturally' I either want to do the complete opposite or I just simply don't have the drive and determination to do it. Its almost as though my intelligence tells me to do something because its a really good idea and it will hugely benefit me in the future (e.g this degree course) but unless the passion for it is there it gets completely sidelined. However when it comes to the crunch and somebody (usually my wonderful parents) says 'look if you don't want to do it - give up, don't waste your time' I just cant let it go because my intelligence kicks in and says 'DONT BE SUCH AN IDIOT AND LET THIS FANTASTIC OPPORTUNITY PASS YOU BY!".  I do it with anything in my life, Violin, Swimming, College, Uni, all sorts. And it also works the opposite way - my past relationship for example.. I was totally and completely head over heels passionate about this guy (even though he was a total jerk) and my intelligence kicked in like 'Leave him - HE'S A TOTAL JERK!' but of course I stayed because the passion ruled! (Thankfully I saw the light and he's long gone now). But yeah its really annoying and I cant seem to be able to change it. Its just the way I am - unfortunately. I really hope there's someone else out there that has this problem. HAHA. But anyway. Back to the journal stuff.

As I said I have never voluntarily written or kept a journal and so I think this is going to be something I am going to find very difficult. Especially since it's not necessarily something I particularly 'want' to do. But it needs to be done and it needs to be done now. *Queue intelligence*. SO. I am going to start keeping my journal from today. And I will probably use pen and paper - I find it more expressive.

Oh and having read through this post.. and reflected on it.. I can now see that I am obviously a heart rules head kinda girl. DAMN IT.

Hello stranger..

Okay so I have not blogged since December 4th last year which is terrible. One reason is because I work in retail and retail over the Christmas period is extremely demanding and tiring. Another reason is because I struggle to commit. To ANYTHING. So yeah. After deferring last term I have had a Skype session with Paula and I am now going to re-commence my studies. I am a little behind and I need to go back over Reader 2 but hopefully I can keep myself focused enough to stay constant and to enabe myself to enjoy studying for my Degree.